Self Worth...maybe

Ok...so I've (very very very) slowly realized that for some odd reason I only blog when I feel like I have some grand, monumental occasion. Which in all  actuality I have simply used as an excuse to be lazy. For that sorry and 'my bad.

 So yesterday I had one of those famous "aaaa HHAA" moments when I was on the way home from college just sitting there in my roommate's car--yes we car pool (going green in a matter of speaking). And well I've been recently just listening to your typical main stream music all the time, inevitably deviating away from my usual christian alternative radio stations. But I've also lost track of myself becoming your classic college student too.The unique thing about this moment was that we were listening to one of your 'good ole' classic preacher probably up there in age judging by the way his voice was crackling who was really getting into it. His message was pertaining to each persons true worth as human beings. 

"Do we see ourselves as 'God's greatest gift to earth that ever lived' or do we see ourselves as low-ly and insignificant?" 

I tend to personally project the first concept to anyone else that knows me, but if you get down to the truth of the matter I always allow myself to blend in and see myself as the latter of the two. I don't know why that is even, maybe confidence is something that some girls are just cursed with lacking..who knows. To borrow words that I have heard multiple times and in multiple situations, I do know in fact that if we truly believe that we are christians in the utmost sense of the word, and we believe that we have been saved by God how can we not see ourselves in such a light that with Him we are this amazing gift from God, sent here as instruments to do His will and live by faith alone. 

I know I'm not personally the perfect person to talk on this matter yet, but I do know I'm trying my hardest to get there. God made each one of us wonderful we just have to remember that when our self esteem takes a hit because that one guy didn't notice you, if your having a bad day, or even if we screw up and feel like we can't make it back to His arms. He's there and He knows he made you perfect--just open your eyes and see it.

Since I arrived here in here in Fayetteville I don't even know how great a difference I've made for the better. I did end up joining a sorority, which by the way was truly a God given gift. Not expecting there to be a group of girls who would be so similar to me, or at least who I want to be, I didn't expect to be accepted by Phi Mu. I've hung out with every type of person here and for once in my life I can even kind of see where this crazy adventure might end up... :)

But He was pierced for our transgressions, He was crushed four our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon Him, and by His wounds we are healed.

Isaiah 53:5