"I don't measure up to much in this life, but I'm a treasure in the arms of Christ. Oh I'm forgiven..."
Whoever said making decisions is easy must have had a lot of practice growing up, because I think I completely skipped that part since I'm pretty much an adult and still have no clue what I want to do half the time. Most recently all I've been thinking about is where I need to go next. When most people graduate from high school they usually know where they're going, what to study, and what they plan to do for the next part of their lives. I'm left breathless when I think about any of that!!
So...my choices are to complacently remain in a state school where I feel like my faith is strained, go back to a private school where I am uplifted and know mostly everyone, OR go out and try something completely new. Sad thing is for the most part I'm just a scared-y-cat! I was even asked on a form what I think I've struggled most with over the last year? and I have to say honestly deep down I know that I haven't let God be God. I always say that I ask myself 'will this draw me closer to Him?'. But I'm finally realizing I've said that all this time but truly haven't lived it.
It's the new year... The big 2012. Resolutions keep circling: the big one for me, "Make more decisions with Him in mind and heart. <3
"Since I have died, I no longer live for myself, but for HIM."
2 Corinthians 5:14-15
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